Babies & More Babies

I've talked about having kids a few times... I just reread this post. Haha!

Let me tell you where I stand today. I'm not 25 & Justin is 29. Amanda is married and neither of us have started trying yet, with no plans to any time soon. Hell, I don't even know what's going to happen to my house.

I've spent the last few days on Facebook checking out all the kids I went to highschool with and their kids. I think I'm the only one left without one. Some I saw were kinda of surprising, but then again, maybe not, I don't know these people anymore. I'm still sure my kid isn't going to have any playmates.

But I don't want a kid because everyone else has one. And I really don't want one "because it's the next step in life." Having a kid means rearranging your priorities, your budget, and making sacrifices. All of which I won't mind doing when that time comes, but right now...hell, no. I like my life and the things I get to do and have, and I'm not ready to give any of it up yet. Don't even think about taking away my car. Not happenin'. Some people know they're born to be a parent, and look forward to it, and start thinking about it as soon as they're able. I'm not one of those people (obviously). On the other side, I do long for the feeling of family and having that complete circle. If it happens accidently, God willing, even tho I take measures to prevent it, I'm not going to be disappointed or upset. I'd take it all in with a confused excited smile on my face.

I love watching my pregnant friends go through pregnancy tho. and hearing them talk about it and how excited they are. I'm quite happy for them! I just hope I still have some friends to experience it with when my time comes.